Is there life post-LSAT?

Well, I probably won't know for a good while. I just decided to sign up for the December LSAT administration. It is such a bizarre feeling putting so much time into something and feel so powerless about the result. Honestly, I have never experienced this feeling. I am a huge believer that if you want to be successful at anything at all, you bust your ass and go hard until you succeed. The LSAT is a totally different story. There are time constraints, and variables. There are experimental sections that mess with your head. And grading curves. You kind of have to work your ass off and hope that everything you did will create a perfect storm of intellectual awesomeness and you will destroy the LSAT on that given Saturday. I honestly have no idea if I will be happy with the score I receive next week (odds are it will come in 9 days. I mean, who's counting?). I have always been hard on myself, and I think there are very few people out there that know how they did...and those are the kooks that are searching for a nearly-perfect score. I'm just on the hunt for a decent score that will show the law school of my dreams that I'm not incompetent. For some reason, it's a tall order. I worked my ass off. I turned my worst section into my best. I now know how to think logically and how to decipher a good argument from a bad argument.  I am so grateful for the LSAT and all of the studying I did. I'm kind of a freak and ENJOYED it. But, if I did poorly on October 9th, I'm worried that my score won't reflect my capabilities. It makes me sad. But I'm prepared to study again and even take a low score and go to a lower-tier school and try to transfer if need-be. I just know I want to be a lawyer. Visiting schools made that even more clear than it ever was before (if that was even possible). I'm prepared to put off my social existence for another couple months. Being a hermit for 6 months is a damn good investment as far as I am concerned. It is THE REST OF MY LIFE we are talking about here. I am just so excited for the future. I am dying to be a student and study law. I AM WILLING TO PAY GOOD MONEY FOR A LAW DEGREE! Someone take me. Please?